| i know we haven't known each other for that long and I really shouldn't be asking you for this but i want it so badly...don't get me wrong it's just that i havn't had it for a long time..I could already feel it going in so hard and coming out so soft and wet.. No one has to know about this...I'm desperate..But your help can be very greatful. you must think i have a lot of nerve asking you for this but i can feel my tongue all around it sucking all the juices out until there's no more left... this has been on my mind all day long and I hope i'm not being to foward but
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| Well, It's been a week shy of a month. It's not as bad but I still miss him. I've found out so much about what he thinks and how he felt about me, that it probably would have been better for him to cheat on me!  you know? I just wish that we never would have went out and i think he feels the same way.  It would be nice though, if a guy other than Wayne would hit on me! :wink: I have no self esteem, I had little but he kinda just drained it all!  But i'm doing good! We have a track meet Thursday at Warner,  and then we're going to state on Friday for our Ensemble in Choir!  And then, me and Jessi are going to Kansas for Aquire the Fire right after we get back!!!  so everything is in Gods hands and i'm just kinda letting it play out, But i hate not having any control. And I always invited jamie to church and some one said that he got annoyed by it so I'm kinda happy we've broke up. Before he could lie and hurt me more.  Oh yeah, one of his friends asked if he thought he was being jerk to me, and he said that he was. Like he's trying to. It's so annoying! but i'll get over it with time, Which I hate to waste! He's graduating thankfully though!!! oh, i'm putting a bunch of smiley faces in here to emphasize how I feel!!! Are you picking up what I'm putting down?  Well see ya's later and hopefully you have a better life than I! See Ya! |
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| We broke up and he broke my heart! I don't know why i'm feeling this way. Gosh, it hurts so bad! I just gave him back his ring too. I started bawling after i gave it to him. It's just shouldn't hurt this bad! So many good things can come from this but all i want is him! nothing else...i'm starting to cry again. I'm not even supposed to cry over a guy like him. Why? This sucks so bad! I just can't imagine not being with him even though we're not together any more. Uhhh..... |
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| Hey, I'm super stressed right now. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong for him to be like that. This is the only place I can write without him being able to read it. I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough for you to want to spend time with me. I'm sorry I'm not sporty enough to want to play football with. I'm sorry I'm not smart enough to even talk to me at school. I'm sorry I'm not anything enough for you to just want to hang on me or giv eme a hug. I'm just sorry! I just wish that he love me as much as I love him. How can I get over feeling this way about him? It's like when I try to be anything I just open myself for Heart ache and rejection. It hurts so bad. I just hate being me and not knowing what he thinks of me. So as my last resort I'm going to try to ignore him and maybe that will be the end. I don't know..... Gosh I'm so lost!!!!! *sobbing* |
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| I can't believe I'm doing this but I'm actually going to update! So I am currently taken and loving every minute of it! I love him to pieces!!! I am pretty happy right now, and I don't really know why! Oh, we went to see a play last night and it was pretty good, Camelot it was. It was really good. Okay so I'm doing really good in school and have been going to this great church so I'm pretty content with who I am... Kinda. I'm very stressed out and I don't know how not to be!! Weird! So that's pretty much everything happening right now! I'll try to update more often... See YA... *Tiff* |
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